January 2012
I hate to distance myself from you right now because of how you’re feeling, but I have to in order to protect myself. You are leaving me feeling unfocused, confused, unloved, and all around like shit. I can’t deal with you throwing all your negative feelings at me…I just can’t. I’m in a really good place for the first time this year and I can’t slip back to how...
May the wind be always at your back, may the sun...
Motivation.
Woke up this morning thinking of not exercising, but then remembered why I exercise in the first place…
It relieves me of some of my stress
I’m stronger
I make healthier choices
My sex life improves
I won’t be the person complaining about my body and not doing anything about it
I’m happier with myself
I have more energy
So, I guess exercise isn’t too bad, even...
Dinner:
Salad of romaine lettuce, cucumber, a roma tomato, clementine, turkey, and raspberry vinaigrette. Probably going to have a quarter cup of greek yogurt to get a bit more protein, or maybe I’ll make a small strawberry-banana smoothie.
Oblivious.
I guess it never really passed my mind that relationships actually require a lot of effort and hard work; I always thought they came easily to the people who were in them, but I was wrong. I’ve never been in a relationship before, so going in to this, I expected everything to flow nicely and smoothly and then come to an abrupt end when we hit a rough patch. Fortunately, that’s not the...
I'm sorry for being bleak sometimes.
The power of the situation is greater than we realize sometimes and last night was no exception. I don’t know how to apologize for being myself or admitting that I tend to focus on the past.
Zumba instructors are far too happy for me.
Went to my first Zumba class today…it was an hour of pure hell. I think I’ll be trying the TurboKick class on campus instead, or keep to strength and cardio.
Anyway, here’s a breakdown of what I ate today… Breakfast: Maple brown sugar oatmeal with a banana Snack: Clementine and blueberry bagel Lunch: Romaine salad with cucumber, tomato, raspberries, and light raspberry...
Frustration.
I am fully invested in this relationship- every fiber of my being is-but it’s like you don’t feel the same way, even though you say you do. I understand how you’re feeling right now: you say you’re numb and that every part of your life seems duller, but I need you to try to see past that. Where your head is right now spells trouble for us because I feel like I’m...
Up since 7:30am and exhausted.
This morning I woke up, ate breakfast and had coffee, went to my chem class (which actually turned out to be the wrong TA and classroom…I can’t read), came back and went to the gym, spent twenty minutes on the elliptical, came back home, showered, went to my neurobio class, read for chemistry, then went to my MCB class.
Now I feel dead.
“When all the hard times outweigh the good. And all of your words are...”
– City & Colour (via idiotsandartifacts)
“I have learned now that while those who speak about ones miseries usually hurt,...”
– C.S. Lewis (via salveo)
Watchheysammy:
omega-rhythm:
Neil Patrick Harris & David burtka play the Chewlywed! (For people who leave outside the US)
I really wish them to be truly happy ever after.
What I Ate Today:
Breakfast: Maple brown sugar oatmeal with a banana Lunch: Cottage cheese with cherry tomatoes; half a pita with roasted red pepper hummus Snack: Blueberry bagel with cream cheese (maybe a tablespoon) Snack: Raspberries in honey-vanilla greek yogurt Post-workout snack: Blackberries Dinner: Turkey sandwich on wheat with tomatoes and a side of cucumber and tomatoes
Drinks: water and coffee
...
Got my cardio in for the day!
Twenty minutes on the elliptical felt like forever, but I’m sure it’ll pay off. Note to self, however: find a different time to go to the gym because it is packed at four in the afternoon.
thatonekidmegan:
“Two dollars, twenty-seven cents, January 17th, 2006. Here in a diner with my friends, talking about how the year went.”
Happy Birthday, Dan “Soupy” Campbell!
My day so far...
Woke up at eight
Stretched, did push-ups and squats
Drank coffee, ate maple brown sugar oatmeal with a banana
Went to psychopharmacology
Deposited rent/food money
Exercised (strength/toning)
Ate lunch: cottage cheese with tomatoes and a side of mixed berries (need to add carbs, I know)
Still on the agenda:
Go to chem lecture
Cardio with Melissa at the ARC
Read the introduction to my...
sex has to count as exercise because my thighs and glutes are killing me.
Bathroom thoughts are the best.
Jon and I have been together for nine months, but it doesn’t feel that way at all. I still get excited when he texts me, or when he comes to see me…even when I stay over after a party. Those weird little things still give me butterflies and make me a bit anxious. I don’t know if this is how all relationships are, but it works for me.
Watching Jersey Shore and Vinny is leaving because of his anxiety disorder. I’m both proud of Vinny and sad to see him go, but I’m mostly proud of him. I know how hard it is to live inside your own head and not feel like yourself, but he owns his problem and is doing what he needs to do in order to be happy. A lot of people try to live their lives for other people, especially in that...
